The Safety Net

I am not courageously curious as a person. I am concluding this on the basis of a brief analysis of my activities and interests and the fact that they mostly are very convenient.

Whether it was travelling a little bit to places that are (extremely) easily accessible or watching a shit ton of stuff on TV or even listening and liking someone who is already very popular, I feel that as much as those things help me evolve (and yes, they do), I also feel that I should perhaps choose the direction of this evolution.

Last year, I had decided that I will travel more, but ended up choosing those places where I knew that I would be able to travel comfortably and prettily. I went to all the small towns around Geneva and to the big European cities where literally everything is so easy to do. There are no language barriers (mostly) and neither was the food that I ordered bad. There was this sort of polish and pre-conformed idea behind the adventure and now I am just wondering whether the charm of it been a lot more or a lot less, had I not been cautious about where I was going.

I am a risk averse individual who also doesn’t like being confronted by people close to me (case in point, my family). Lately, I have been feeling that this lack of courage to stand up for my choices and the lack of self-confidence required to be curious is a self-imposed restriction. So, here we are, this is the next thing that I want to deal with. The Self-imposed restrictions or the Safety Net. The richness of my existence is feeling threatened today.