The Dam

I have had a great one month, better than the entire last year actually and here’s why: Before entering 2021, I decided to get rid of my unhealthy habits pertaining to investing my time in other people. Now it is not a breezy path but it deserves a shot. I kind of left the ‘needy’ energy behind in 2020. The ‘need’ to be loved blinded me to the actual love that I had in my life. The ‘need’ to be great at say, French, cost me some friends even. The ‘need’ to be a part of my friends’ lives. I sort of still care but almost don’t. You see I treat 2020 as the dam for my future life. Going forward, every thought, every idea will pass through this ‘filter’ where I will compare it to what would it mean to me in a pandemic and will it really matter when the world is ending and there is no future? If it doesn’t matter, I am not taking it forward with me. Another thing, you know how fast life can get… this dam is going to help me slow it down. We don’t have to rush anything. We don’t have to have everything. Just breathe, you’re coming out of a pandemic.